I don't know if it's because too many things are on my mind or I'm stressed up or what.. But I just don't wanna do anything.. Recent kdramas that I've watched are making me so fustrating with the screwed up ending, far from perfect. Not a good sign psychologically.. 

How nice would it be if I have someone that I can just call out for buffet

What's there in life if one cannot even go to any country? This is really suffocating, really..

2014年的你一定要幸福和快乐

And so I guess the best way to keep myself from sinking everytime is to treat you just like a younger sister. I have to draw the line clear somehow I guess.

Don't have the courage now to face the fact that you might possibly be dating some other ppl right now. And not to say we drifted so much and you dont seem to miss it at all. Maybe its just not you to miss that.

Anyways, its high time to do nothing. Man.. don't know what this sentence is suppose to mean but I probably should go to sleep.

- I need some healing right now. I thought I'm good but seeing you once more has unsettled my small and fragile heart.
- Guess I'm not ready to go and read back on my previous entries yet. Maybe next year, next year.

How nice would it be if those words were meant for me. No wait, if those were for me then it's bad, I think. Sigh.. 

Have been very busy with sch and it hectic like mad. 2 weeks have passed by again so quickly since we last talk. Add the 2 two weeks and its been a month since we stopped communicating. I think communicating is a much more deeper level than talking but maybe we never reached that level.

Just wanna say that occasionally I just think of you and the moments that we spent together. To me they are just beautiful because you're part of it. Part of my memories.

On a side note, maybe I should start losing some weight. 10 kg sounds like a good start.