in this world, is there anyone who can accept us as who we are and what we are?
is it possible for someone to love another for who they are and vice versa.
up till now, i still doesn't believe that i am able to find someone who will accept me as who i am and i am not sure if i am able to do the same too.
many people have different perception about loving,
or maybe there exist a universal perception about loving, i never know
i have never experience it before.

as human being continues to evolve and change,
things gets more and more complicated.
people can come into a relationship not for the sake of finding true love
but to manipulate another for their own greed/satisfaction/desire.
of course that is only a minority but is still a problem.

will there be a time where i can find that special someone who will accept me as who i am?
someone who willings to sacrifies herself for the sake of keeping her love ones save from harm?
someone who is able to defy the nature of human beings
who is kind, gracious, good temperament, patience, etc
when the time comes where i think i have met my "destiny"
am i able to do the same?
willing to do everything in my power to keep her from danger
accept her as who she is
be good to her and so on?

i really have no idea
but i would give my all to try and do so
fufill what i always wanted to give a shot at
cherishing and valuing the special one

no idea if it is because of the korean drama that i watched
my mentality now is to find a date and date not for fun
many people of my age would probably be dating for fun
or maybe for experience.
they may not be thinking much about the future, their future
but i still believe quite a handful of people may be like me
the intention to date seriously.

seriously i don't understand why guys and break up wif their girls
when their gf are nice to them n the guy actually have a change of heart
i can understand that changing of heart is like falling in love
uncontrollable but how on earth can someone change their heart for something new
when they spend years tgt with their 'gf'
maybe this may happen to me in the future and i will then fully understand why
but i hope it doesn't.
i juz want my "first love" and for my "first love" to be my "last love"
simple as a b c.

for some reason, i'm really thinking way to far for myself.
like in the future how will my life be
will i be spending quality time with my wife
will my life be empty without kids
and those weird stuff which i shouldn't be concentrating on now..

read an article recently about is it possible for couples to go on loving each other till old.
initially people (scientist) believed that love cannot go out for ever after marriage.
love will just disappear gradually.
but now it is believed that love can still exist even after marriage.
the first decade of married live may be very blissful
and for the second decade, it is still possible for love to exist.
this brings me back to my wonderland again.
which scenario will i belong in the future?
its like wad i said about accepting the other person for who they are.
will i be able to keep my promise?
i keep believing nthat i can belong to the latter part,
but once again, i have none, totally no experience
so speaking now is way too early
including writing this to-no-where post!

alright this will be the end of the to-no-where post...
gotta sleep now for my second final driving lesson tmr!