i'm really feeling tired, not tired but very very tired.

i've observed myself that i am a very fast pace person
a person who wants to do everything to the finest
as fine as possible, as my limit can reach.
i eat fast, i walk fast, i talk fast(sometimes?), i wan good grades, etc

but recently in the morning when walking to sch from woodlands
i begain to start thinking in the spare time.
why am i moving so fast?
everyone is moving slowly enjoying their finest time and yet i am moving without looking back and savouring the very fun moment.

i tried walking slowly in the morning and i really feels different
empty
its like for the past 18 years, i have not achieve anything at all
well i did but not as important as one thing in my life
something worth sacrificing for,
something to cherish,
and of course i am talking about a person here.

i really want to slow down and take a good look around me!
i'm feeling so tired.