out of so many places, i still think blogger is the best place for me to write down my thoughts without having to considering so many other issues that may come along if i were to pen it down for example in facebook...

many things have took placed over the past few weeks with the UTs, IEP and some issues here and there with some unhappiness among some. also finally the boiling point was reached and everything just went off. There are still some questions which I didn't manage to ask but thinking back like what I have conversed with another good friend of mine, I concluded that its best to keep the question to myself since knowing the answer won't bring us any good. But human being is just a strange creature.. The mind decides on A but the heart wants B or was it that my mind and heart wasn't working together in the first place? I seriously dislike this type of issues.. just why is it so hard for me to achieve one thing? This type of issue has been causing me to become more and more depressed and negative since a few years ago (to think i saw that person again after like 3 years on the way to work)

Weirdly i have a very interesting dream which is a dream which i can only dream of and it evolves between me and two girls (no dirty thoughts please)! I can't help but keep thinking of that particular dream where a girl likes me but i like another girl which i don't remember if there is any in the dream. Somehow due to disapproval from her family about seeing me, she couldn't take it and broke down in front of me and both families. The somehow she asked me to make a decision as to whether i am willing to go out with her. I was hesitance but didn't give any response because i wasn't really prepared yet to accept her as i am trying to let go of the past. But afterwards i started to regret after thinking for some time and wanted to make up to her! And RINGGGGG... damn stupid alarm went off because its 5.45 in the morning already!   

Damn.. hope the dream continues but what makes me like his particular dream is that it really reflects what i hope to have in life where the other party appreciate me and accept me as who i am and like me as what i am and not something else. I suppose true love is unconditional and in-regrettable. Something which i can say in theoretically but not in real experience.