She texted me again ytd when I didn't reply to her first msg "You don't have to listen to my problems. I can listen to your too~". I thought for a long time but nothing comes to my mind. I don't know what to tell her. So, I text back "Thank you, really" about an hour later. I was prepared not to receive any reply becuz its past midnight. Woke up this morning and saw that she read the msg. No reply but I felt disappointed. Maybe to her I'm really just one of the many friends she has. Just another friend. Whenever my phone vibrated, the only thing I wish to see was your name. But the more I want to see your name, the more it wont appear.

There's so many things I want to talk to her about, tell her about but the only chance will only come next week. A difficult chance, at the chalet. I want to be alone with her, to tell her what's on my mind. Maybe we could go for a stroll or maybe we could go for a cycle to changi v but will that opportunity arise when only the 2 of us are alone?

"I don't want to regret this in the future so I'm just going to speak my mind. You're a good lady, an awesome friend and the best companion I could ever ask for. Although we only knew each other for close to 2 months but the time spent with you was very memoriable. From the game sessions during the camp to trashing me in pool to the photography moment during Jinfei's birthday to the wonderful teamwork in fosball game and the constant silly chat we had (though I know you don't enjoy the chatting part). I really like it when I'm next to you.

Over the past 6 weeks, I begain to start falling for you. Bit by bit and before I knew it I'm already more than half a head in. I want to be your special guardian, protecting you from harm, to be there for you during the good and the bad, to be your moral and emotional support but I know that is no longer possible. I can tell your heart already belongs to somebody else and I know that me as who I am right now has no chance at all.

If one day I am back as a better man, will you give me another chance to love you properly? At that time I promise I won't let you go anymore."

Will I be able to tell her all these?