Is there something wrong between us or with me that I should know of?

She's been extremely lukewarm towards me for the past few days since last week and her attitude towards me is getting more and more obvious. I don't know what I've done or haven't done to make her treat me this way but please if there's anything, do communicate with ME so that I only where the problem lies. If its because of the incident yesterday, then please DON'T!!! There's nothing much to it so why are you making a big thing out of it and jeopardize our friendship? Am I really not worthy of your attention anymore or am I just a stepping stone for you when you're bored? Do you know when you don't say anything, thousand and thousands of different answers and scenarios played in my mind. This is very mentally draining to me.

Truth me told, I'm really tired. My attention has been separated into 2. One part on her and another part on sch. The fact that my focus on her has make me extremely susceptible to emotional roller-coaster. I cannot focus where I should be focusing, that is sch, and it really not helping. I want to talk to her, I want to clear all the shit and I want to settle things once and for all if she's gonna be like this. I really cannot afford to waste any more time or to side-track from my modules. I am having my first math quiz next tue and guess what, I can't focus. How do you want me to focus when you're now ignoring me.

You can hate a cancer, you can love a cancer but you can NEVER ignore a cancer.

 I don't know about other cancers, but this is so true for me. After a long day out today to relax, I spent more than half the time thinking about what her reply will be only to get one short sentence saying I don't owe her anything. After that, totally cast away to one corner. I don't know how much I've sinked nor how much I'm able to sink even further before I can pull myself up but there's one thing I know for sure. If I don't get the opportunity to talk to her, face to face, to clear things up and to express my view and feelings, then I'll never ever be able to concentrate on my studies at all.

Please. I miss us. Stop tormenting me will you?